Hey, how's it going?  Call me here at work k maybe we can meet up somewhere, I'm leaving shortly......

Today is an up and down day but that is expected considering the circumstances.....I'm thinking of going to the local newspapers and letting the community know about what is REALLY going on and just to bring awareness to women and let them know that it is ok to leave an abusive relationship.....I am prime example....me and five kids......

I'm  just checking this thing out....now I don't know what to type now that I am in here...I have been going through the worst time of my life and I met someone here at work that shares the same pain as I do and mentioned this site...so here I sit....journaling my pain for all to read.....ready ?  I chose my screen name because I am learning to accept the things I can not change.  I'm recently seperated with 5 beautiful children.  Need I say more?  It has been a struggle since I left 4 months ago today in fact.  Alcohol has distroyed my family and now I am left to pick up the broken pieces.  Most of the time I don't know what to do, I feel alone and isolated.  I try to stay out of that negativity but man it's hard.  My children keep me busy with after school activities, homework, dinner and god knows all the LAUNDRY....but still I find it hard to cope and grieve.  and usually I don't.....I just cry.....I've learned to hide my pain from my children cause I know they have seen enough pain to last them a life time.  I've been journalling at home but sometimes I feel like I am writting the same thing.....over and over again......But I know I am healing with each and every jounal entry....I most be made out of stone because the Creator only gives us what we can handle and let me tell you....it's been a hurtle every time.....it makes me stronger and ready for the next hurtle......bring it on....I hope someone gets something out of reading this, I know I feel lighter.....